The Dysregulated Podcast
By Elliot Waters | Lived Experience Mental Health
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James
Jun 1, 2023
It is really unbelievable how much depth and raw emotion is in this podcast. Congratulations Elliot, your story is something special. Thank you for sharing!
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I live with anxiety, depression, ADHD, autism, OCD & BPD — and this podcast shares the hard-fought lessons I’ve learned along the way.
This is lived-experience mental health, told with complete honesty and zero filter, including the vulnerable and significant moments that continue to shape my life today.
Through personal reflections, therapy insights, interviews, nervous system regulation, and real-world struggles, I explore what it means to live with complex mental illness — grounded in psychological science and research.
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Driving Through Life With The Handbrake On: Anxiety, ADHD and The Things I Can't Seem To Do
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Jun 14, 2026 |
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Loneliness, Long Hauls and Sacrifice: Is This The Price Of Purpose?
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May 24, 2026 |
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Highway Confessions: Facing Our Mortality
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Apr 28, 2026 |
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Six Weeks Of Panic: Chasing Purpose While Battling An Anxious Firestorm
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Apr 26, 2026 |
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From Mental Health to Road Transport: My Return to the Freight Game
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Apr 06, 2026 |
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Highway Confessions: The Thoughts I Can’t Outrun
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Apr 02, 2026 |
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Translating Mental Health: Supporting Each Other When the System Falters
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Mar 03, 2026 |
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Crowds, Panic and Rising Above: Autism, Social Anxiety and the Newcastle Knights
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Feb 24, 2026 |
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Panic On The Motorway: Driving Through Anxiety
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Feb 20, 2026 |
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When Love Meets BPD: Guilt, Growth & A Way Forward
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Feb 05, 2026 |
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How Breathwork Changed The Game - Jay | The Energy Alchemist (Intake Interviews)
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Feb 02, 2026 |
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All or Nothing Energy: BPD, ADHD With No Baseline
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Jan 19, 2026 |
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Dysregulated Daily: My Mental Health Journal of Mood and Capacity
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Jan 14, 2026 |
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Choosing Purpose: Turning Bad Days Into A Blueprint For Hope
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Dec 31, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #53 - Recording Through Perfectionism Loops
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Dec 26, 2025 |
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Navigating Inspiration, Dysregulation and Mania (Bipolar, BPD, ADHD And Anxiety Cluster)
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Dec 09, 2025 |
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Swallowing My Social Anxiety Disorder
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Nov 25, 2025 |
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Strike While the Dopamine’s HOT: Capitalising on Momentum
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Nov 07, 2025 |
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When Anxiety, Perfectionism, (And My Inner Critic) Gets In the Way
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Nov 04, 2025 |
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Teen Mental Health Matters: How to Support Young People Through Change (Black Dog Institute)
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Oct 29, 2025 |
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Perfectionism, Imposter Syndrome, and Hitting Record Anyway
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Oct 21, 2025 |
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Chasing Perfection: Why My Inner Critic Is Wrong
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Oct 10, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #52 - Media Blitz
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Oct 02, 2025 |
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Medication Emergency: Three Weeks Without ADHD Stimulants
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Sep 26, 2025 |
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My Therapy Reflections #12 - Bewildered and Bemused
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Sep 18, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #51 - Intake Interviews, Q&A Sessions, Better Left Said
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Sep 15, 2025 |
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In Conversation With...#1 - Holly
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Sep 10, 2025 |
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The Q&A Sessions: An Introduction
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Sep 08, 2025 |
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When Self-Advocacy Faulters: Reflecting on My Psychiatic Journey
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Sep 04, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #50 - Pushing Through Depression And Anxiety
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Sep 03, 2025 |
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When ELLIOT Hits Back! Tackling Social Anxiety Head-On
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Aug 24, 2025 |
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When Social Anxiety Hits Back: Footy, Fear and Finding My Voice
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Aug 24, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #49 - Complications Towards Recovery
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Aug 15, 2025 |
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My Psychiatry Review - Unexpected Outcomes
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Aug 12, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #48 - The Date Is Set
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Jul 25, 2025 |
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Finding Hope in the Mental Health System
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Jul 15, 2025 |
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My Therapy Reflections #11 - When Hope Runs Out (Almost)
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Jul 11, 2025 |
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My Therapy Reflections #10 - Stimulants, Sleep Deprivation and Splitting (BPD)
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Jul 04, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #47 - Perfectionism and Frustration
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Jun 24, 2025 |
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Breaking Point: Becoming The Squeaky Wheel
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Jun 20, 2025 |
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The Discharge Papers #8 - My Pleas For Help During a Mental Health Crisis
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Jun 18, 2025 |
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The 4AM Wakeup: Winter’s Grip On My Mental Health
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Jun 13, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #46 - When Winter Rains Lash My Mental Health
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Jun 05, 2025 |
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DBT Skills: Opposite Action
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May 30, 2025 |
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Mental Health in Limbo: Trying to Force the Issue
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May 28, 2025 |
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Back to the Mater: Searching for Answers
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May 22, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #45 - Still Waiting
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May 20, 2025 |
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My Therapy Reflections #9 - Befriending My Inner Critic (Internal Family Systems)
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May 07, 2025 |
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Overwhelmed And Fatigued: Mood Swings And Emotional Dysregulation
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May 01, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #44 - The Waiting Game
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Apr 23, 2025 |
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My Plea for a Medication Reset
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Apr 12, 2025 |
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My Journal #6 - The Pressure Builds
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Apr 06, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #43 - Road Trips, CBD Oil and the Knights
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Apr 04, 2025 |
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When Anxiety Terrifies Me
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Mar 14, 2025 |
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DBT Skills: Pros and Cons
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Feb 28, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #42 - The Battle Against Anxiety Rages On
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Feb 26, 2025 |
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My First Kiss: Igniting Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD, Self Esteem and Insecurity)
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Feb 15, 2025 |
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My Therapy Reflections #8 (Part B) – The Workaholic Under Threat
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Feb 11, 2025 |
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Running Scared: Fighting Through Anxiety
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Feb 10, 2025 |
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My Therapy Reflections #8 (Part A) - Dysregulated Emotions and Anxious Thoughts
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Feb 10, 2025 |
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NSW Mental Health Crisis
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Feb 07, 2025 |
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Those Dexy Blues: Limitations of ADHD Medication (Anxiety and Dysphoria)
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Feb 02, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #41 - Negative Warning Signs
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Jan 31, 2025 |
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Seroquel Shutdown: Sleeplessness, Dependency and the Workaholic Within
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Jan 23, 2025 |
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Inspired by Nothing: When Motivating Emotions Disappear
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Jan 13, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #40 - My Black Eye
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Jan 10, 2025 |
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Harnessing My ANGER: Turning Frustration into Fuel for Change
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Jan 03, 2025 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #39 - Crawling Towards the New Year
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Dec 31, 2024 |
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'24 Medication Review
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Dec 25, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-in #38 - Winding Down
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Dec 19, 2024 |
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Beyond the Bottle #7 - Stumbling and Relapse
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Dec 16, 2024 |
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Putting a Lid on Extreme Emotions
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Dec 11, 2024 |
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Building Better - Working Around My ADHD
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Dec 02, 2024 |
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Intake Interviews #3 - Holly’s Journey of Survival and Hope
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Nov 26, 2024 |
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My Therapy Reflections #7 - The Cognitive Overthinker (Internal Family Systems & EMDR)
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Nov 21, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-in #37 - Annual Leave With My Anxiety
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Nov 20, 2024 |
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Locking In My Fundamentals: Two Weeks to Renewed Mental Clarity
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Nov 15, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #36 - Capacity Issues
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Nov 07, 2024 |
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Ramping Up the Pressure on My ADHD
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Oct 31, 2024 |
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My Therapy Reflections #6 - Dissociative Confusion
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Oct 22, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #35 - Undefined Anxiety Attack
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Oct 22, 2024 |
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Intake Interviews #2 - Stell (Part 2): A Brighter Outlook on Life and Motherhood
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Oct 08, 2024 |
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Finding Focus Again: My Shift Back to Vyvanse
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Oct 05, 2024 |
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My Therapy Reflections #5 – Guests at the Dinner Table (Internal Family Systems)
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Sep 26, 2024 |
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Intake Interviews #1 - Estelle (Part 1): Motherhood, Mental Illness and Resilience
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Sep 24, 2024 |
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Introducing the Intake Interviews: Real Stories of Lived Experience
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Sep 24, 2024 |
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ADHD and Me: First Impressions Of My New Psychiatrist
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Sep 20, 2024 |
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The Psych Ward Stories: The Fear of Loneliness
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Sep 19, 2024 |
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My Therapy Reflections #4 - EMDR and My Internal Family
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Sep 12, 2024 |
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Oasis Mania: From Anxious Catastrophe to Cautious Elation
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Sep 03, 2024 |
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Bed Ridden: Days Of Severe Depression
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Aug 29, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #34
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Aug 22, 2024 |
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Hyper-Fixation Madness: ADHD In Control
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Aug 14, 2024 |
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The Psych Ward Stories: Antipsychotic Medication Miracle
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Aug 11, 2024 |
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Mood Slow Down - Depression And Panic Sweats
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Aug 08, 2024 |
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Measuring My Stress and Worry: Beck Anxiety Inventory (BAI)
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Jul 22, 2024 |
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My Therapy Reflections #3 - Dissociative Amnesia
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Jul 18, 2024 |
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My Therapy Reflections #2
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Jul 07, 2024 |
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Embracing Chaos: Therapy, Advocacy, and New Beginnings
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Jul 05, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #33 (part B) - Lungs Are Burnin’
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Jun 26, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #33 - Weighed Down
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Jun 25, 2024 |
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Beyond the Bottle #6 - Six Months
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Jun 13, 2024 |
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Three Days of Darkness: Depression Sets In
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Jun 12, 2024 |
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Banned From the Zoo (Almost): Lions And Autism
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Jun 06, 2024 |
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One Down, Plenty to Go: Tapering Off Medications
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May 27, 2024 |
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Bipolar Warning Signs: Is This Mania?
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May 26, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #32 - Withdrawals Taking Hold
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May 20, 2024 |
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A Perfect Storm: Withdrawals and COVID
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May 16, 2024 |
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One Step Forward, Two Steps Back
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May 16, 2024 |
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My Tapering Plan
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May 10, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #31 - Time to Taper
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May 08, 2024 |
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Beyond the Bottle #5 - Married to the Drink
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May 03, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #30 - Brain Zaps and Weddings
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Apr 28, 2024 |
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A Time for Reflection: Alumni Award Nomination
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Apr 17, 2024 |
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Beyond the Bottle #4 - First Dates
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Apr 14, 2024 |
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Pride of the Hunter: Tackling Social Anxiety Disorder
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Apr 09, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #29 - No Sweat
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Mar 27, 2024 |
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Beyond the Bottle #3: The First Big Test
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Mar 16, 2024 |
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Strung Out: Fatigued and No Sleep
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Mar 15, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #28 - Back to Normality
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Mar 01, 2024 |
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Never Backing Down: Healthy Habits And Resilience
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Feb 29, 2024 |
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Catastrophic Meltdown: An Acute Mental Health Crisis
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Feb 28, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #27 - Transitional Leave
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Feb 22, 2024 |
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Kava, Loopholes and Mental Fitness
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Feb 09, 2024 |
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Time To Pause: Focusing On My Psychiatric Ward Admission
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Feb 03, 2024 |
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Humbled by Boredom
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Jan 25, 2024 |
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Breaking the Rules
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Jan 22, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #26
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Jan 11, 2024 |
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A Depressive Episode in Real-Time
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Jan 08, 2024 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #25 - Maintaining My Alcohol Free Zone
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Jan 07, 2024 |
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2023 Report Card
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Dec 31, 2023 |
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Beyond the Bottle #2: - Welcoming the New Year Sober
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Dec 31, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #24 - Full Steam Ahead
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Dec 20, 2023 |
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Beyond the Bottle #1
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Dec 10, 2023 |
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The Discharge Papers #7
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Dec 09, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #23 - Spotify Wrapped
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Nov 30, 2023 |
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Anxiety Attack Continues
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Nov 24, 2023 |
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Going Dark: Alcohol Fuelled Anxiety
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Nov 23, 2023 |
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Wedding or Alarm Bells? My Xanax Fuelled Manic Episode
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Nov 19, 2023 |
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My Healthy Coping Strategies
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Nov 17, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #22 - Falling Down
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Nov 12, 2023 |
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My Therapy Reflections #1
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Nov 02, 2023 |
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Happy Birthday to Me
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Oct 24, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-in #21 - Steady as She Goes
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Oct 20, 2023 |
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My Return to Therapy (Again)
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Oct 19, 2023 |
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Presenting for the Black Dog Institute
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Oct 12, 2023 |
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For My Fifteen Year-Old Self
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Sep 19, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #20 - Maximum Capacity
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Sep 18, 2023 |
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A Win Against Social Anxiety Disorder
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Aug 20, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #19 - Night Terrors
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Aug 18, 2023 |
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My Fear of Google Calendar (ADHD, Generalised Anxiety And Panic)
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Aug 02, 2023 |
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Staying the Course: Social Pressure And Sobriety
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Jul 29, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #18 - Run For Your Life
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Jul 26, 2023 |
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In the Throes of Generalised Anxiety Disorder And Panic Attacks
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Jul 20, 2023 |
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In the Throes of Depression And Negative Emotions
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Jul 18, 2023 |
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Borderline Personality And Depression: Sinking Into a Dysregulated Emotional Abyss (BPD)
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Jul 08, 2023 |
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Needing Early Wins
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Jul 02, 2023 |
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The Lost Days: Disassociating Through Work And Despair
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Jun 29, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #17 - Short Supply
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Jun 15, 2023 |
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Post-Show Euphoria: Presenting For The Black Dog Institute
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Jun 08, 2023 |
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Pre-Show Jitters: Presenting For The Black Dog Institute
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Jun 08, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #16
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Jun 01, 2023 |
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Rock N Roll Star: Identity Disturbance and BPD
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May 30, 2023 |
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Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)
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May 29, 2023 |
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Everything’s Clunky
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May 23, 2023 |
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My BPD Siege Mentality: Controlling My Anger
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May 18, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #15 - Not Depressed, but Very Flat Indeed
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May 12, 2023 |
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Running With My Inner Critic
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May 04, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #14 - Habit Building
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Apr 28, 2023 |
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Trade-offs: Medications, Side Effects And Improved Mood
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Apr 27, 2023 |
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My Great Comeback: Returning From The Psychiatric Ward
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Apr 21, 2023 |
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Taking The Next Step
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Apr 09, 2023 |
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My Return to Therapy
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Mar 30, 2023 |
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The Psych Ward Stories: Medication Changes
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Mar 29, 2023 |
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The Discharge Papers #5 - Psychiatric Emergency
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Mar 23, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #13 - Clinical Review
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Mar 21, 2023 |
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Those I've Lost Along the Way
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Mar 14, 2023 |
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My Journal #5
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Mar 12, 2023 |
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My Return to Hospital: Intermediate Stay Mental Health Unit
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Mar 10, 2023 |
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Sleep Deprived: Compounding The Suffering From Mental Illness
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Feb 24, 2023 |
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Referral Letter - Intermediate Stay Mental Health Unit (Psychiatric Ward)
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Feb 21, 2023 |
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DBT Skills: Wise Mind
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Feb 20, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #12 - Return to hospital?
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Feb 16, 2023 |
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My Living Hell: My Battle With Severe Mental Illness
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Feb 11, 2023 |
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Medication Overhaul (Upgrading To Tricyclic Antidepressants)
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Feb 07, 2023 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #11 - Feeling Flat
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Feb 02, 2023 |
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DBT Skills: Radical Acceptance
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Jan 25, 2023 |
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Powering into 2023
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Jan 01, 2023 |
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Introduction to Dialectical Behaviour Therapy (DBT)
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Dec 30, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #10 - The Tide is Turning
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Dec 23, 2022 |
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My Inattentive ADHD
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Dec 16, 2022 |
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5000 Hits of Dopamine
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Dec 13, 2022 |
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The Discharge Papers #4
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Dec 05, 2022 |
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The Psych Ward Stories: Withdrawals
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Nov 17, 2022 |
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The Psych Ward Stories: Sweating Bullets
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Nov 05, 2022 |
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Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
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Nov 04, 2022 |
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In Brief: Aspergers, ADHD and me
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Nov 01, 2022 |
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The Psych Ward Stories: It begins
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Oct 29, 2022 |
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Ready to Turn This Ship Around
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Oct 21, 2022 |
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The BPD, OCD and Depression Model
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Oct 09, 2022 |
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Admissions Referral Letter
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Oct 08, 2022 |
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Obsessive Intrusive Thoughts
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Oct 07, 2022 |
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Rolling With The Punches
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Aug 24, 2022 |
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Back from the Brink
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Jul 15, 2022 |
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My Empty Fuel Tank
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Jul 08, 2022 |
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Hitting the Limit
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Jul 02, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #9
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Jun 26, 2022 |
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The Discharge Papers #3
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Jun 18, 2022 |
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The Anxiety Trifecta
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Jun 13, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #8
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Jun 03, 2022 |
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Caffeine Use Disorder
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May 22, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #7 - Grappling with Anhedonia
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May 18, 2022 |
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Cognitive Distancing: How to Separate from Negative Thoughts
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May 14, 2022 |
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The Discharge Papers #2
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May 10, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #6 - Still sick, but still pushing ahead!
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May 05, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #5 - The Physical and Mental Health Relationship
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Apr 23, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #4
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Apr 13, 2022 |
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Left vs Right Brain part 2: Left-Focused Therapies (CBT & DBT)
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Apr 09, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #3
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Mar 31, 2022 |
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My Journal #4 and The Discharge Papers #1
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Mar 19, 2022 |
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My Struggle with Rejection Sensitivity
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Feb 17, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #2
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Feb 10, 2022 |
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Treatment Resistant Disorders
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Feb 10, 2022 |
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Fortnightly Check-In #1
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Feb 02, 2022 |
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Left vs Right Brain part 1: Theory, Behaviours and Personality
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Jan 17, 2022 |
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New Year, New Me
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Dec 31, 2021 |
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My Greatest Honour
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Nov 29, 2021 |
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The Anxiety Twins
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Nov 26, 2021 |
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My Journal #3
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Nov 21, 2021 |
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D-Day: Part B - the Thesis submission
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Nov 10, 2021 |
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My Journal #2
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Nov 02, 2021 |
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Mental Illness: Just in our head?
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Oct 31, 2021 |
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D-Day: Part A - Procrastination and Avoidance
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Oct 29, 2021 |
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ABC Newcastle Radio Interview
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Oct 22, 2021 |
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Run Elliot, run!
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Oct 20, 2021 |
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My Journal #1
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Oct 18, 2021 |
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Town Hall Presentation - Kiama NSW
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Oct 10, 2021 |
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Expert Insights: Repetitive Negative Thinking
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Oct 07, 2021 |
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The Psych Ward, Dianne and me.
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Sep 30, 2021 |