At a Total Loss

By Katherine Lazar

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We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again. Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends. This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again? Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going. Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.

Episode Date
Jenny: What Joey Taught Me
Apr 14, 2026
Losing Two Sweet Babies: What Lindsey Wants Other Moms to Know
Apr 01, 2026
Accepting the Gifts From Our Babies
Mar 24, 2026
Marcela: Stillbirth, Grief, PAL & Supporting Other Loss Moms
Mar 09, 2026
Alissa: 8 Years Later
Feb 24, 2026
Loss Mom Questions Answered
Feb 16, 2026
A Fantastic Mess
Feb 02, 2026
The Misfits of Grief
Jan 26, 2026
God, Attitude & Anxiety After Loss
Jan 12, 2026
"The Dig Out"
Jan 05, 2026
Loss Mama Life: then vs now
Dec 15, 2025
Your Loss Mama Besties
Nov 27, 2025
Birthday Reflections & Real Talk
Nov 15, 2025
Evermore Adoption Consultants
Nov 02, 2025
Gabriela Rosa: Fertility Specialist
Oct 23, 2025
October Talk
Oct 16, 2025
Alexandra & Wells part 2
Oct 09, 2025
Alexandra & Wells Part 1
Oct 02, 2025
The Kaiden Paul Foundation
Sep 26, 2025
A Touch of Teddy
Aug 28, 2025
Lara: Losing Malek & Finding Answers
Aug 15, 2025
Lexi: Leaning into the Pain
Jul 12, 2025
Loss Life Lately
Jul 03, 2025
Elle: Triplet Loss Mom & Therapist
Jun 27, 2025
Kate: Grief & Beauty after infant loss
Jun 19, 2025
Emmy: Coping & Hoping After Stillbirth
Jun 12, 2025
She's back on her BS
Jun 05, 2025
Anna & Kent Thalman: Filmmakers
Mar 20, 2025
How Perfectionism Makes Grief Harder
Mar 13, 2025
January 87, 2025
Feb 01, 2025
Mason Sawyer
Jan 23, 2025
New Year, Same Sh*t
Jan 16, 2025
Dr Joanne Cacciatore- Grief Doctor
Jan 09, 2025
Tallia: Loss Mama & Life Coach
Dec 11, 2024
100th Episode!
Dec 04, 2024
Maila's Present
Nov 27, 2024
Holidays After Loss
Nov 18, 2024
Rio Richards | Grief & Trauma Recovery Therapist
Nov 11, 2024
Jillian + Lorenzo
Sep 02, 2024
Lyndsay + Kove
Aug 04, 2024
Count the Kicks/Healthy Birth Day
Jul 29, 2024
Triggers, Spirals & Complaining
Jul 21, 2024
Catherine: Incompetent Cervix, Placental Abruption & DIC
Jul 07, 2024
Anxiety During PAL
Jun 23, 2024
PAL Birth Plan
Jun 09, 2024
Molly + Roman
Jun 02, 2024
What Else We Lose After Loss
May 26, 2024
Courtney + Conrad
May 19, 2024
Bri: CHD; Ebstein's Anomaly
Apr 21, 2024
4 Types of Relationship Loss
Apr 14, 2024
Making Decisions After Loss
Apr 07, 2024
Sharon: Psychic Medium
Mar 24, 2024
Edlyn: When Lightning Strikes Twice
Mar 09, 2024
Serena: Staying connected to your baby
Mar 02, 2024
Anna: Surrogacy After Loss
Feb 24, 2024
Dr Jason Collins: Umbilical Cord Specialist
Feb 18, 2024
Ashley + Daniel
Feb 09, 2024
Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS)
Feb 03, 2024
Maternity Leave Policies & Returning to Work After Loss
Jan 26, 2024
Your Baby's Birthday
Jan 20, 2024
Support Guide
Jan 11, 2024
Pregnancy After Loss: Gender Disappointment
Jan 05, 2024
Intimacy & Sex After Loss
Dec 28, 2023
'Tis the Season to be Griefy + more
Dec 21, 2023
Jeanette + Sabrina: 40 years later
Dec 14, 2023
Loss Dad Q&A
Dec 07, 2023
Casey + Charlotte
Nov 30, 2023
Thankful for You
Nov 23, 2023
Holidays After Loss
Nov 17, 2023
Lauren + Austin
Nov 10, 2023
Chelsea + Elizabeth
Oct 30, 2023
Crystal-Gayle + Damani
Oct 19, 2023
Parenting Your Newborn After Loss
Oct 12, 2023
Stillbirth Prevention & Advocacy
Oct 08, 2023
Surrogate Loss Mom
Sep 28, 2023
Andrea + Terra
Sep 22, 2023
Audience Questions
Sep 14, 2023
Kids Grief Support
Sep 07, 2023
Maria + Rylen
Aug 31, 2023
Holly + Harry
Aug 25, 2023
Kelly + Owen
Aug 17, 2023
Sarah + Jasmine
Aug 10, 2023
Alissa + Anna
Jul 26, 2023
Charmell + Harper
Jul 15, 2023
Nicole + Cameron
Jul 09, 2023
Emily + Oliver
Jun 29, 2023
Baby Weight & Body Image After Loss
Jun 22, 2023
Amy + Carter
Jun 15, 2023
Nikki + Skylar
Jun 01, 2023
Dr Heather Florescue, OBGYN
May 25, 2023
Liz, Kelsey + Sarah are BACK!
May 18, 2023
Sydney + Leighton
May 11, 2023
My Story
May 05, 2023
The Loss Life: Katherine + Mim
Apr 27, 2023
Nathalie + A'Mya
Apr 20, 2023
Dealing with Triggers
Apr 13, 2023
The Loss Life: Katherine + Sarah
Apr 06, 2023
Jennifer: Accelerated Resolution Therapy
Mar 30, 2023
Rebekah + Faith + Asher
Mar 23, 2023
Marlie: Obstetric Negligence Attorney
Mar 16, 2023
Laura + Lainey Part 2
Mar 09, 2023
Laura + Lainey Part 1
Mar 02, 2023
Adelying + Sage
Feb 23, 2023
Dr Harvey Kliman
Feb 16, 2023
Katherine + Liz talk PAL
Feb 09, 2023
Ashton + Sage
Feb 02, 2023
Sydney + Adam
Jan 26, 2023
Katherine + Brody's Dad
Jan 20, 2023
Katie + Makenna
Jan 13, 2023
Ally + Noelle
Jan 05, 2023
Sarah + Nathanial
Dec 29, 2022
Katherine + Brody's Mimi
Dec 22, 2022
Melissa + Lachlan
Dec 15, 2022
Crystal + Sienna
Dec 08, 2022
Faryl + Daphne
Dec 01, 2022
Katherine: Holiday Special
Nov 24, 2022
Mim + Lenny + Bhai
Nov 17, 2022
Heather + Laura Caroline
Nov 10, 2022
Jennica + Hugo
Nov 03, 2022
Heather + Miles
Oct 27, 2022
Bliss + Harrison
Oct 20, 2022
Ana + Owen
Oct 13, 2022
Amanda + Juniper
Oct 06, 2022
Katherine's Husband Michael
Sep 29, 2022
Bree + Rainey
Sep 22, 2022
Amy + Lauren
Sep 15, 2022
Moria + Noah
Sep 08, 2022
Katherine's Sister Kristina
Sep 01, 2022
Erica + Verity
Aug 25, 2022
Megan + Grace
Aug 17, 2022
Domenique + TJ
Aug 10, 2022
Sarah + Brody
Aug 04, 2022
Introduction
Jul 23, 2022
Liz+Harrison
Jul 23, 2022
Kelsey+Patrick
Jul 23, 2022