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If you feel a shift happening but can't name what it is — this podcast is for you.
A podcast about anxiety, life transitions, and living in the messy middle.
Maybe nothing major happened, but you don't recognize yourself anymore. Or maybe you're navigating divorce, a diagnosis, faith transition, or identity shift. Either way, every hard human experience has something in common: you lose who you were before you know who you're becoming. That gap? That's the messy middle. The messy middle is a transition. The feeling that lives inside it? That's anxiety.
I'm Nikki P., a former therapist who built this show because I needed it myself — and realized other people did too. Every week, I have honest conversations with people living in the gap — holding joy and grief, gratefulness and struggle, certainty and uncertainty — all at the same time, without pretending any of it isn't real.
No toxic positivity. No fix-it mentalities. Just real language for the feelings you couldn't name, and permission to be exactly where you are. This is for people in the messy middle who need real talk, not empty platitudes.
Life isn't either/or. It's both. And you're allowed to hold all of it.
New episodes weekly. Find me @itsbothpodcast.
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Grieving a Place I Haven't Left Yet
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Jun 02, 2026 |
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REPLAY: The Episode That Started It All — Body Image
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May 26, 2026 |
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She Lost Her Husband and Had to Rebuild Everything
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May 19, 2026 |
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I Look Like a Man They Told Me to Hate
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May 12, 2026 |
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What If You Never Get Married? — And That's Okay
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May 05, 2026 |
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Why Men Are Lonelier Than Ever (And What Actually Helps)
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Apr 28, 2026 |
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When the Life You Worked For Isn't the Life You Want
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Apr 21, 2026 |
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The Room Where You Stop Managing Yourself
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Apr 14, 2026 |
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My Brain Says It's Right, My Body Doesn't Believe It
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Apr 07, 2026 |
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Three Years in the Maybe: Foster Adoption Anxiety
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Mar 31, 2026 |
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The Faith-Based Parenting Advice That Delivered Trauma
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Mar 24, 2026 |
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I Yelled at My Daughter and Watched Her Break
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Mar 17, 2026 |
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The Mental Load: Co-Founder or Just a Passenger?
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Mar 10, 2026 |
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What If the 'Difficult' Kid Isn't the Problem?
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Mar 03, 2026 |
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When Starting Over Isn't a Choice — It's What's Left
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Feb 24, 2026 |
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Navigating Anxiety: Safe AND Uncomfortable at Once
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Feb 17, 2026 |
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Overthinking the Question I Was Afraid to Ask
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Feb 10, 2026 |
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When Your Faith Shifts and You Believe Differently Now
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Feb 03, 2026 |
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Faith in Transition: What If Hell Isn't What You Thought?
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Jan 27, 2026 |
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When Purity Culture Taught You to Fear Your Own Body
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Jan 20, 2026 |
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Rob Bell: What If You Already Know the Answer? Pt 2
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Jan 13, 2026 |
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Rob Bell on Anxiety: The Certainty That Doesn't Exist - Pt 1
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Jan 06, 2026 |
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When the Year Ends in Transition, Not Transformation
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Dec 23, 2025 |
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Why Your Anxious Body Won't Let You Rest When Exhausted
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Dec 16, 2025 |
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Grief and Relief: You Can Feel Both After Divorce
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Dec 09, 2025 |
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What Your Heart Rate Is Trying to Tell You About Your Stress
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Dec 02, 2025 |
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The Exhaustion of Code-Switching to Feel Safe
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Nov 18, 2025 |
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What If Letting Go of the 'Right' Answer Is Perfect?
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Nov 11, 2025 |
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When Caring About Everything Leads to Burnout
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Nov 04, 2025 |
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The "Art" of Not Knowing Without Spiraling Into Anxiety
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Oct 28, 2025 |
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When Your Kid's Meltdown Triggers Your Own Anxiety
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Oct 21, 2025 |
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You Can Love Them AND Be Angry (Both Are True)
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Oct 14, 2025 |
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What Happens When Therapy Isn't Enough for Your Anxiety?
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Oct 07, 2025 |
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When Life Changes and Doctors Don't Believe Your Pain
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Sep 30, 2025 |
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When Inspiration Replaces Ambition in Life Transitions
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Sep 23, 2025 |
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It’s Both — Start Here (Trailer): Anxiety, Transitions & the Messy Middle
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Sep 16, 2025 |
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When Choosing Truth Costs You Your Sense of Belonging
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Sep 02, 2025 |
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Navigating Life Transitions After a Refugee Journey
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Aug 26, 2025 |
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Starting Over: When Half Your Identity Leaves
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Aug 19, 2025 |
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What If Rest Isn't Lazy — It's Burnout Recovery?
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Aug 12, 2025 |
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When You're the Only One in the Room Who Looks Like You
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Aug 05, 2025 |
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When Your Body Changes Through Life Transitions
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Jul 29, 2025 |
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Love Them AND Keep Your Distance: Setting Boundaries
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Jul 22, 2025 |
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When Friendships Drift and You Don't Know How to Let Go
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Jul 15, 2025 |
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When Helping Others Leads to Burnout
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Jul 08, 2025 |
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When Everything Feels Heavy and You're Still Grateful
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Jul 01, 2025 |
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When Youth Group Taught You Fear, Not Faith
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Jun 24, 2025 |
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Career & Motherhood: Overthinking Every Choice
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Jun 17, 2025 |
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Grief Isn’t Either/Or: Navigating Transitions After Loss
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Jun 10, 2025 |
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When Friendships Add to Your Mental Load
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Jun 03, 2025 |
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Overthinking and Burnout: The Mental Load of Motherhood
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May 27, 2025 |
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Modern Masculinity & Emotional Regulation
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May 20, 2025 |
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When Everything You Built Starts to Unravel
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May 13, 2025 |
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When You're Managing Everything AND Overthinking It All
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May 06, 2025 |
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What If You Don't Have to Love Your Body — Just Stop Hating It?
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May 06, 2025 |
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Holding Two Truths: Divorce, Parenting, and Becoming
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May 06, 2025 |
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Coming Soon - It’s Both: A podcast about learning to hold multiple truths
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Apr 29, 2025 |