It’s Both — Living in the Messy Middle

By Nikki P

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It's Both is a podcast for the messy middle — the space between who you were and who you're becoming, full of life transitions, anxiety, and uncertainty.

Maybe nothing major happened, but you don't recognize yourself anymore. Or maybe you're navigating divorce, a diagnosis, faith change, grief, a parenting season that's changed everything, or an identity shift you didn't choose. Every hard human experience asks you to let go of who you were before you know who you're becoming — and that gap is where transition anxiety shows up, where you feel lost during a transition you can't fully name. Both are normal. And you don't have to go through it alone.

I'm Nikki P., a therapist turned storyteller. I built this show because I needed it myself — and realized other people did too. Every week, I have honest conversations with people living in the messy middle — holding joy and grief, gratitude and struggle, certainty and uncertainty — all at the same time, without pretending any of it isn't real.

No toxic positivity. No fix-it mentalities. Just real language for the feelings you couldn't name, and permission to be exactly where you are. If you've been craving emotional support during transitions, or just a podcast that makes you feel a little less alone — this is for you.

Life isn't either/or. It's both. And you're allowed to hold all of it.

New episodes weekly. Find me @itsbothpodcast.


Episode Date
Waiting for Permission to Start Over
Sep 16, 2026
Starting Over Certain, Not at Peace
Sep 01, 2026
Transition Anxiety, Live From My Friend's Basement
Aug 18, 2026
The Messy Middle of Self-Worth, Core Wounds & Becoming
Aug 04, 2026
Betrayal Is a Different Kind of Grief
Jul 21, 2026
The Messy Middle of Becoming a Mother
Jul 14, 2026
Breathwork, Grief & Starting Over
Jul 07, 2026
The Identity Shift Nobody Talks About in Codependency
Jun 24, 2026
Starting Over With Desire After Losing Yourself
Jun 17, 2026
When You Can't Control What's Next - A Meditation for the Waiting
Jun 09, 2026
Grieving a Place I Haven't Left Yet
Jun 02, 2026
REPLAY: The Episode That Started It All — Body Image
May 26, 2026
She Lost Her Husband and Had to Rebuild Everything
May 19, 2026
I Look Like a Man They Told Me to Hate
May 12, 2026
What If You Never Get Married? — And That's Okay
May 05, 2026
Why Men Are Lonelier Than Ever (And What Actually Helps)
Apr 28, 2026
When the Life You Worked For Isn't the Life You Want
Apr 21, 2026
The Room Where You Stop Managing Yourself
Apr 14, 2026
My Brain Says It's Right, My Body Doesn't Believe It
Apr 07, 2026
Three Years in the Maybe: Foster Adoption Anxiety
Mar 31, 2026
When the Parenting Blueprint Delivered Trauma Instead
Mar 24, 2026
I Yelled at My Daughter and Watched Her Break
Mar 17, 2026
The Mental Load: Co-Founder or Just a Passenger?
Mar 10, 2026
What If the 'Difficult' Kid Isn't the Problem?
Mar 03, 2026
When Starting Over Isn't a Choice — It's What's Left
Feb 24, 2026
Navigating Anxiety: Safe AND Uncomfortable at Once
Feb 17, 2026
The Question I Was Too Afraid to Ask
Feb 10, 2026
Identity Shift: When You Believe Differently Now
Feb 03, 2026
Starting Over When Everything You Believed Collapses
Jan 27, 2026
When Purity Culture Taught You to Fear Your Own Body
Jan 20, 2026
Rob Bell: What If You Already Know the Answer? Pt 2
Jan 13, 2026
Rob Bell: The Certainty That Doesn't Exist - Pt 1
Jan 06, 2026
When the Year Ends in Transition, Not Transformation
Dec 23, 2025
Why Your Anxious Body Won't Let You Rest When Exhausted
Dec 16, 2025
Grief and Relief: You Can Feel Both After Divorce
Dec 09, 2025
What Your Heart Rate Is Trying to Tell You About Your Stress
Dec 02, 2025
The Exhaustion of Code-Switching to Feel Safe
Nov 18, 2025
What If Letting Go of the 'Right' Answer Is Perfect?
Nov 11, 2025
When Caring About Everything Leads to Burnout
Nov 04, 2025
The "Art" of Not Knowing Without Spiraling Into Anxiety
Oct 28, 2025
When Your Kid's Meltdown Triggers Your Own Anxiety
Oct 21, 2025
You Can Love Them AND Be Angry (Both Are True)
Oct 14, 2025
What Happens When Therapy Isn't Enough for Your Anxiety?
Oct 07, 2025
When Life Changes and Doctors Don't Believe Your Pain
Sep 30, 2025
Starting Over From Ambition to Inspiration
Sep 23, 2025
It’s Both — Start Here (Trailer): Anxiety, Transitions & the Messy Middle
Sep 16, 2025
When Choosing Truth Costs You Your Sense of Belonging
Sep 02, 2025
Starting Over Between Two Worlds — A Refugee Journey
Aug 26, 2025
Starting Over: When Half Your Identity Leaves
Aug 19, 2025
What If Rest Isn't Lazy — It's Burnout Recovery?
Aug 12, 2025
When You're the Only One in the Room Who Looks Like You
Aug 05, 2025
Menopause Is an Identity Shift Nobody Warned You About
Jul 29, 2025
Love Them AND Keep Your Distance: Setting Boundaries
Jul 22, 2025
When Friendships Drift and You Don't Know How to Let Go
Jul 15, 2025
When Helping Others Leads to Burnout
Jul 08, 2025
When Everything Feels Heavy and You're Still Grateful
Jul 01, 2025
Starting Over When Fear Was the Foundation
Jun 24, 2025
Career & Motherhood: Overthinking Every Choice
Jun 17, 2025
Grief Isn’t Either/Or: Navigating Transitions After Loss
Jun 10, 2025
When Friendships Add to Your Mental Load
Jun 03, 2025
Motherhood: When the Mental Load Leads to Burnout
May 27, 2025
Modern Masculinity & Emotional Regulation
May 20, 2025
When Everything You Built Starts to Unravel
May 13, 2025
When You're Managing Everything AND Overthinking It All
May 06, 2025
What If You Don't Have to Love Your Body?
May 06, 2025
Holding Two Truths: Divorce, Parenting, and Becoming
May 06, 2025
Coming Soon - It’s Both: A podcast about learning to hold multiple truths
Apr 29, 2025