It’s Both — Living in the Messy Middle

By Nikki P

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If you feel a shift happening but can't name what it is — this podcast is for you.

A podcast about anxiety, life transitions, and living in the messy middle.

Maybe nothing major happened, but you don't recognize yourself anymore. Or maybe you're navigating divorce, a diagnosis, faith transition, or identity shift. Either way, every hard human experience has something in common: you lose who you were before you know who you're becoming. That gap? That's the messy middle. The messy middle is a transition. The feeling that lives inside it? That's anxiety.

I'm Nikki P., a former therapist who built this show because I needed it myself — and realized other people did too. Every week, I have honest conversations with people living in the gap — holding joy and grief, gratefulness and struggle, certainty and uncertainty — all at the same time, without pretending any of it isn't real.

No toxic positivity. No fix-it mentalities. Just real language for the feelings you couldn't name, and permission to be exactly where you are. This is for people in the messy middle who need real talk, not empty platitudes.

Life isn't either/or. It's both. And you're allowed to hold all of it.

New episodes weekly. Find me @itsbothpodcast.


Episode Date
Grieving a Place I Haven't Left Yet
Jun 02, 2026
REPLAY: The Episode That Started It All — Body Image
May 26, 2026
She Lost Her Husband and Had to Rebuild Everything
May 19, 2026
I Look Like a Man They Told Me to Hate
May 12, 2026
What If You Never Get Married? — And That's Okay
May 05, 2026
Why Men Are Lonelier Than Ever (And What Actually Helps)
Apr 28, 2026
When the Life You Worked For Isn't the Life You Want
Apr 21, 2026
The Room Where You Stop Managing Yourself
Apr 14, 2026
My Brain Says It's Right, My Body Doesn't Believe It
Apr 07, 2026
Three Years in the Maybe: Foster Adoption Anxiety
Mar 31, 2026
The Faith-Based Parenting Advice That Delivered Trauma
Mar 24, 2026
I Yelled at My Daughter and Watched Her Break
Mar 17, 2026
The Mental Load: Co-Founder or Just a Passenger?
Mar 10, 2026
What If the 'Difficult' Kid Isn't the Problem?
Mar 03, 2026
When Starting Over Isn't a Choice — It's What's Left
Feb 24, 2026
Navigating Anxiety: Safe AND Uncomfortable at Once
Feb 17, 2026
Overthinking the Question I Was Afraid to Ask
Feb 10, 2026
When Your Faith Shifts and You Believe Differently Now
Feb 03, 2026
Faith in Transition: What If Hell Isn't What You Thought?
Jan 27, 2026
When Purity Culture Taught You to Fear Your Own Body
Jan 20, 2026
Rob Bell: What If You Already Know the Answer? Pt 2
Jan 13, 2026
Rob Bell on Anxiety: The Certainty That Doesn't Exist - Pt 1
Jan 06, 2026
When the Year Ends in Transition, Not Transformation
Dec 23, 2025
Why Your Anxious Body Won't Let You Rest When Exhausted
Dec 16, 2025
Grief and Relief: You Can Feel Both After Divorce
Dec 09, 2025
What Your Heart Rate Is Trying to Tell You About Your Stress
Dec 02, 2025
The Exhaustion of Code-Switching to Feel Safe
Nov 18, 2025
What If Letting Go of the 'Right' Answer Is Perfect?
Nov 11, 2025
When Caring About Everything Leads to Burnout
Nov 04, 2025
The "Art" of Not Knowing Without Spiraling Into Anxiety
Oct 28, 2025
When Your Kid's Meltdown Triggers Your Own Anxiety
Oct 21, 2025
You Can Love Them AND Be Angry (Both Are True)
Oct 14, 2025
What Happens When Therapy Isn't Enough for Your Anxiety?
Oct 07, 2025
When Life Changes and Doctors Don't Believe Your Pain
Sep 30, 2025
When Inspiration Replaces Ambition in Life Transitions
Sep 23, 2025
It’s Both — Start Here (Trailer): Anxiety, Transitions & the Messy Middle
Sep 16, 2025
When Choosing Truth Costs You Your Sense of Belonging
Sep 02, 2025
Navigating Life Transitions After a Refugee Journey
Aug 26, 2025
Starting Over: When Half Your Identity Leaves
Aug 19, 2025
What If Rest Isn't Lazy — It's Burnout Recovery?
Aug 12, 2025
When You're the Only One in the Room Who Looks Like You
Aug 05, 2025
When Your Body Changes Through Life Transitions
Jul 29, 2025
Love Them AND Keep Your Distance: Setting Boundaries
Jul 22, 2025
When Friendships Drift and You Don't Know How to Let Go
Jul 15, 2025
When Helping Others Leads to Burnout
Jul 08, 2025
When Everything Feels Heavy and You're Still Grateful
Jul 01, 2025
When Youth Group Taught You Fear, Not Faith
Jun 24, 2025
Career & Motherhood: Overthinking Every Choice
Jun 17, 2025
Grief Isn’t Either/Or: Navigating Transitions After Loss
Jun 10, 2025
When Friendships Add to Your Mental Load
Jun 03, 2025
Overthinking and Burnout: The Mental Load of Motherhood
May 27, 2025
Modern Masculinity & Emotional Regulation
May 20, 2025
When Everything You Built Starts to Unravel
May 13, 2025
When You're Managing Everything AND Overthinking It All
May 06, 2025
What If You Don't Have to Love Your Body — Just Stop Hating It?
May 06, 2025
Holding Two Truths: Divorce, Parenting, and Becoming
May 06, 2025
Coming Soon - It’s Both: A podcast about learning to hold multiple truths
Apr 29, 2025