3am Thoughts

By Annique Tate

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Episodes: 14

Description

From Toilet Panic to 3AM Peace: One Woman's Journey Through IBD, Fertility, and Finding Hope in the Dark


Now, this is a story all about how my life got flipped-turned upside down... but it's not the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air.

It's the raw, unfiltered truth about trying to become a mother at 40+ while battling IBD, premature ovarian failure, and a medical system that wasn't designed for women like me.

This is where I share what really happens when your bowels, your fertility, and your dreams collide.

From panic attacks in public toilets to navigating donor eggs, from being dismissed as "too old" to holding my miracle baby at 3am - this is my story, filter-free.

What you'll hear:

  • Honest conversations about IBD and fertility (including the farting - because fart loud, fart proud!)
  • What fertility clinics don't tell you about reproductive health
  • The emotional reality of premature ovarian failure and donor eggs
  • Medical advocacy and learning to trust yourself over "experts"
  • Hope, tears, and finding peace when everything feels hopeless
  • Guest stories from others on similar journeys


This podcast is for:

  • Women struggling with fertility who feel alone despite being surrounded by support.
  • Anyone navigating chronic illness while trying to conceive.
  • People facing age-related prejudice in their fertility journey.
  • Anyone who needs permission to be messy, angry, hopeful, and real about becoming a parent.


What makes this different:

No filters. No polish. No Instagram-perfect motherhood. Just real stories from the messy middle, the parts nobody talks about but everyone experiences.

This isn't medical advice. I'm not a doctor. I'm just someone who's been through it and wants you to know you're not alone in the dark.

New episodes: Weekly

Your voice deserves to be heard. Always.


Episode Date
Let's unpack the question: What about donor eggs?
Feb 27, 2026
Chapter Eleven - Donor Eggs
Feb 13, 2026
Chapter Ten: Mushrooms, Mindset and POF
Jan 30, 2026
Chapter Nine - The Straw That Broke the Camel's Back
Jan 16, 2026
Chapter Eight - The Question that Breaks You
Dec 19, 2025
Chapter Seven - The Long Road Down
Dec 12, 2025
Acupuncture for Fertility in Your 40s: Real Talk with Houri Alavi
Dec 09, 2025
Chapter Six - Summer in Sicily
Nov 28, 2025
Chapter Five - What Do You Want Us to Do, Miss Tate?
Nov 21, 2025
Chapter Four - USA, Menopause and Fight or Flight
Nov 14, 2025
Chapter Three - In Case of Emergency, the Toilets Are Here, Here and Here
Nov 07, 2025
Chapter Two - Big Fun, Decisions and a Slap from Reality
Oct 30, 2025
Chapter One - Panic in the Toilet
Oct 30, 2025
Introduction
Oct 30, 2025