This Is Actually Happening

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Reviews: 16

hidden ********** lgbt content
 Aug 23, 2021
we dont need your politics shoved down our throats..especially our innocent kids. atleast warn us of this content FFS. unsubscribed

JJ
 Jun 19, 2021
I prefer podcasts where there is a host conducting the story. This format I personally find tedious, but I see other people really enjoy it. So it depends on your taste.


 Mar 19, 2021

sarah
 Feb 19, 2021
i love that people get to tell their own stories. no narration, no drama, just the pure story.


 Feb 2, 2021

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New episodes come out every Tuesday for free, with ad-free episodes and exclusive past episodes available for Wondery+ subscribers.


What if your mother left to follow a cult… or you woke up in a morgue… or if your boat got caught in a storm and began to sink -- what would you do?   This is Actually Happening brings you extraordinary true stories of life-changing events told by the people who lived them. From a man who finds out a celebrity crush isn’t who she seems to a woman stranded in a Mexican desert fighting to survive, these stories will have you on the edge of your seat waiting to hear what happens next.


Episode Date
203: The Long Shadow: What if you were on the 68th floor?
00:51:30

“It’s not like there was time to ponder your fate…you just thought, we’re powerless to get out of the building….This is it.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A Port Authority employee narrowly escapes from the 68th floor after a plane hits the World Trade Center on September 11th, 2001, but the most devastating impact comes from the psychological wounds that haunt her life for decades after. 


Today's episode featured Kayla Bergeron. In addition to serving as chief of public and government affairs for The Port Authority of New York and New Jersey, Kayla has also served in senior roles for the New York State Housing Finance Agency and South Florida Water Management District, the lead agency restoring America's Everglades. 

Kayla currently resides in Suwanne, Georgia and serves as Program Director, and as a Certified Peer Support Specialist -Addictive Disease (C.P.S.- A.D.), for The Connection Forsyth, a 501c3 non profit recovery community organization, based in Cumming, Georgia. Kayla works as a social media consultant for Special Equestrians of Georgia, in Milton, Georgia, also a 501c3 non profit, where she participates in equine-assisted therapy.

Kayla recently started a gofundme for Special Equestrians of Georgia, where she receives equine-assisted therapy for PTSD. Last year, Special Equestrians of Georgia (SEG), based in Milton, GA, had to close down its hippotherapy program due to COVID-19 and safety concerns. As a result, many of the horses had to be rehomed. Currently, SEG provides equine-assisted therapy for teens and adults with mental health challenges, including depression, PTSD, anxiety and trauma. With COVID-19 Delta variant hovering, Special Equestrians of Georgia may be forced to shut down its doors -- for good. It costs approximately $3,000 to fund the program, which includes feeding and special dietary needs, farrier, veterinarian, medicine and facility maintenance. Please help by donating to Special Equestrians of Georgia.

This episode is part of a special, four-part series called The Long Shadow. Twenty Years after the attacks of September 11th changed the world as we knew it, this month the This Is Actually Happening podcast dives deep into the stories of four survivors whose jobs brought them face to face with the unthinkable. For those called to manage an impossible tragedy up close, the events of September 11th represented a uniquely horrifying challenge. Among the harrowing details of that day, we explore the long shadows of trauma and resilience that continue to inform the looming uncertainties that remain with us today.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus


Episode Sponsors: DoorDash

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: violence, sexual assault, injury, terrorism, mention of suicide, alcoholism, addiction, mental illness explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music and Sound Design by: Marcelino Villalpando

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Sep 14, 2021
202: The Long Shadow: What if you ran the ER five blocks away?
00:53:56

“The world looks like it’s coming to an end, and another cloud comes over…Everything goes dark, and the world is covered in dust.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Episode Summary: On September 11th, 2001 an ER Doctor finds himself in charge of the closest emergency room to the Twin Towers.


Today's episode featured Tony Dajer. Tony was born in New York City, grew up in Puerto Rico, and has been practicing as an ER Doctor in New York for 30 years. You can read one of Tony's articles called "Vital Signs" featured in Discover Magazine at www.discovermagazine.com/health/vital-signs-37.

This episode is part of a special, four-part series called The Long Shadow. Twenty Years after the attacks of September 11th changed the world as we knew it, this month the This Is Actually Happening podcast dives deep into the stories of four survivors whose jobs brought them face to face with the unthinkable. For those called to manage an impossible tragedy up close, the events of September 11th represented a uniquely horrifying challenge. Among the harrowing details of that day, we explore the long shadows of trauma and resilience that continue to inform the looming uncertainties that remain with us today.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/


Special Thanks: To all who helped make this series happen - Ellen Westberg, Andrew Waits, Marcelino Villalpando, Gabriella Quintana, Emily Caldwell, and Jason Blalock.

 

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: GoodRX: goodrx.com/happening; Lending Tree

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: violence, graphic bodily injury, terrorism, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music and Sound Design by: Marcelino Villalpando

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Sep 07, 2021
Wondery Presents: Suspect
00:05:36

A big Halloween party at an apartment complex in Redmond, Washington. Themed rooms and costumed partygoers. But by the end of the party, one of the hosts is dead. The police look to the partiers as the prime suspects: was it the guy in the devil mask, the bank robber, the construction worker? As investigators comb through forensic evidence, witness testimony, DNA, and even consult with a psychic, they zero in on one suspect in particular. But for what reason? Host and reporter Matthew Shaer (Over My Dead Body) returns to the scene of the crime, speaks with everyone about a night that still haunts them years later. It’s a series about race and policing, mislaid justice, cutting-edge science, and the kinds of weighty choices that cops and prosecutors make every day -- choices that, once made, are difficult to reverse.

Listen to SUSPECT: wondery.fm/Suspect_ActuallyHapp

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Sep 01, 2021
201: What if you believed it was all your fault?
00:51:06

“There’s really no way to explain how it feels when you realize one decision you made in an instant altered the life of everyone around you.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: A woman who finally finds her sense of purpose after a tumultuous upbringing realizes a mother’s ultimate horror.

Website for Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Simplisafe: simplisafe.com/actually

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, drug use, alcoholism, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, self harm, infant death, graphic injury, sexual assault, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

 

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Aug 31, 2021
200: What if you were consumed by your only cure?
00:59:41

“All the reality that I had been putting off, and all of the denial, it all crashed in on me.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock


Episode Summary: Growing up in the closet with a mentally ill mother, a man finds his true love, but as their past continues to weigh in, the only remedy he knows threatens to consume everything he’s built.


Today's episode featured Gabriel. Gabriel is now a psychiatric social worker and licensed therapist in Orange County, California. You can find out more about Gabriel on Instagram @gabriel.emmm.

 

Website for Jason Blalock: www.jasonblalock.com

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Best Fiends, Lending Tree, BetterHelp: betterhelp.com/happening

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: drug abuse, drug addiction, opioids, overdose, death, suicide, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Aug 24, 2021
199: What if your deepest friendship was your darkest fate?
00:53:25

“I was too ashamed to reach out and say, ‘Look, I don’t understand what’s happening, I think I’m going crazy…please help me.’”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Matt Volla

Episode Summary: Following early experiences of isolation and bullying, a man assigned female at birth finds a beautiful friendship, that soon descends into a bewildering cycle of gaslighting and obsession.    


Today's episode featured Vel Ryder. You can find out more about Vel on Twitter and Instagram @whiskeyandspite.

 

Website for Matt Volla: www.mattvolla.com

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus


Episode Sponsors: Upstart: upstart.com/happening

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: suicidal thinking, mental illness, gaslighting, psychological abuse, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes/Embers” – SkyeVoyager https://linktr.ee/SkyeVoyager

  

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Aug 17, 2021
198: What if you rescued everyone to save yourself?
00:55:02

“When I knew I was dying, I knew that I wasn’t going to have the anxiety or the OCD brain, it was just going to be over.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman with severe harm OCD encounters the many faces of death and dying but finds renewal in caring for others and ultimately herself


Today's episode featured Rachel. You can find out more about her on Facebook at fb.com/RachelHillestad.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus


Episode Sponsors: GoodRX: goodrx.com/happening; ThredUp: thredup.com/happening

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: homicidal thoughts, harm OCD, death, sexual assault, mention of suicide, suicidal thoughts, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Aug 10, 2021
197: What if you died?
01:08:35

“That’s me, and I’m dead. But if that’s me, then who am I?”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After surviving a brutal upbringing in the South Bronx, a man finds himself on the other side of death following a minor accident and returns with a profound awakening. 


Today's episode featured Jose Hernandez. You can find out more about Jose and the work he is doing at: https://innerimmersion.org where you can sign up to join the community and participate in the free Monthly conversations, "Evening Joe". To learn more about Jose's art check out his gallery at https://www.josehernandezfineart.com.

You can see Jose featured in the Netflix docuseries, "Surviving Death.” If you're interested in learning more about near-death experiences, Jose will be a featured speaker at the IANDS conference this year. IANDS stands for the International Association for Near Death Studies. He will be presenting "Embracing the Masculine: Helping Men make the Shift into the New Paradigm" with Randy Kolibaba, a highly decorated Canadian RCMP officer. IANDS have arranged to offer Jose and Randy's talk free to veterans so if there is a veteran in your life you think could benefit from hearing this talk, please direct them to IANDS and ask for Diane Cocoran  https://iands.org

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

 

Episode Sponsors: BetterHelp: betterhelp.com/happening; Simplisafe: simplisafe.com/happening

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: near death experience, domestic abuse, murder, gruesome violence, suicidal thinking, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Aug 03, 2021
What if you survived a genocide? [Rebroadcast - #113]
00:53:25

"No one can even understand. You can't measure the magnitude of that pain. You can't measure the pain that we went through."

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A refugee recounts her experience of the horror and devastation of the Rwandan genocide.

 

This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #113 in August 2018

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Upstart: upstart.com/happening; Best Fiends

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: extreme violence, war, genocide, murder, assault, explicit language

 

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:   "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie; "Water" - Johannes Welsch

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Jul 27, 2021
What if you had a ten-year nightmare? [Rebroadcast - #103]
00:50:14

"The hardest part is that I still don't have any answers...what came into my house that night?"

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A musician is sideswiped by a sudden break into a nightmarish world that will not let him go

 

This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #103 in November 2017


Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Caliper: trycaliper.com/happening; Grove: grove.co/happening; ThredUp: thredup.com/happening

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual violence, hallucination, explicit language

 

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:   Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

 

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Jul 20, 2021
What if you transitioned into an alternate reality? [Rebroadcast - #124]
00:51:51

“It’s almost as if like I could feel my whole self just changing at this point and just changing in the way that I trust people…and questioning myself and everything.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: After a chaotic upbringing, a man assigned female at birth finds a new community with caring mentors, when their mental illness threatens to unravel his entire reality.

 

This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #124 in January 2019

 

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Literati: literati.com/happening; BetterHelp: betterhelp.com/happening

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, treats of violence, explicit language

 

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:   "Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Jul 13, 2021
What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare? [Rebroadcast - #79]
00:39:06

“It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.'”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A woman recounts her childhood dealing with a mentally ill father obsessed with Disneyland.

 

This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #79 in September, 2016.

 

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus


Episode Sponsors: Grove Collaborative: grove.co/happening; Upstart: upstart.com/happening; Best Fiends

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language

 

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:   "Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Jul 06, 2021
What if her ex-boyfriend tried to kill you? [Rebroadcast - #114]
00:52:20

“All of a sudden within a hundred meters of your house that’s where the worst thing happens and suddenly the world becomes different…you can’t go back to who you were.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A man is relentlessly stalked by his girlfriend's ex.

 

This episode is part of the Summer 2021 rebroadcast series, featuring listener favorites from the back catalogue. All episodes in this rebroadcast series were released prior to episode #130, which are currently exclusive to the Wondery Plus. Today’s episode originally aired as #114 in August, 2018.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: stalking, attempted murder, explicit language

 

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:   "Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

 

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Jun 29, 2021
196: What if you went missing?
01:08:55

“It was just full chills over my body, tears in my eyes, it was that moment of I don’t know, I don’t understand, I don’t know.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock

Episode Summary: A woman who seeks awakening through myriad healing practices finds her ultimate challenge when she goes missing in a Maui forest.

 

Today's episode featured Dr. Amanda Eller. You can find out more about Amanda by going to AmandaEllerPT.com. You can also find her on Instagram: @amandaeeller

And on Facebook: @amandaeeller. Amanda is currently living on the island of Maui and is offering her healing services to both the local and global community through in-person and online sessions.  

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Show Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Website for Jason Blalock: https://jasonblalock.com

 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: near death, eating disorder, body dysmorphia, hallucinations, explicit language

  

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

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Jun 22, 2021
195: What if you never stopped searching?
00:57:42

“The not knowing is awful, and it’s awful from day one and it’s awful thirty years later, but every day that goes by you get more and more in reality.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock


Episode Summary: Decades after her brother disappeared in the early 1980s, a woman becomes deeply involved in the search for a missing friend.   


Today’s episode featured Sarah Haynes. Somebody out there knows something about her brother Jon Haynes, who went missing in Boulder July 1981 just days after arriving for college. If you know anything, please contact the Boulder police department. There is a $10,000 reward for info leading to his body, his car, or for information about who may have harmed him https://apps.colorado.gov/apps/coldcase/casedetail.html?id=258

 

Sarah’s Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/sarahspitfire 

 

Her animal sanctuary on Maui is called Kitty Charm Farm and the Facebook page is:

https://www.facebook.com/KittyCharmFarm

 

Website for Jason Blalock: https://jasonblalock.com

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: missing person, abusive threats, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

 

 

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Jun 15, 2021
194: What if you ran but couldn't hide?
00:59:53

“It planted a seed in my mind that has never ever gone away even now that people might not be who they say they are.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: A woman is haunted by a relentless threat of danger when her pursuit of safety turns into obsession.


Today’s episode featured Hannah. Hannah is a writer living in California. If you’d like to reach out, you can email her at hannahwrites08@gmail.com

 

Website for Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic abuse, mention of suicide, mention of murder, criminal activity, sexual assault, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes/Embers” – SkyeVoyager https://linktr.ee/SkyeVoyager

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

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Jun 08, 2021
193: What if your deepest secret was shared with the world?
01:04:50

“I felt like I was sort of drifting along as something besides human, like I had stepped onto another planet inside my head.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A man haunted by an early childhood trauma finally establishes his own identity only to be sideswiped by another unwanted, shocking exposure. 


This episode featured Michael McAllister. He's a writer working on a book-length memoir, and you can find out more about him at his blog, dogpoet.com, or on Instagram at @dogpoetmike.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault, child molestation, suicidal ideation, terminal illness, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

 

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Jun 01, 2021
192: What if one wrong turn meant life or death?
00:46:52

“You are in absolute darkness, and until you are in that kind of situation it’s hard to understand what darkness is.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A lifelong traveler heads out for a quick bike ride in the Swiss Alps and finds herself lost in a dark, icy unknown.


Today's episode featured Ava Chisling. Ava is a media lawyer and writer from Montreal. You can find out more about her on her website, avachisling.com. Waiting for herd immunity before she can travel again, Ava is hard at work in her hometown, where her chances of getting lost are only 53%.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mention of suicide, near death, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

 

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May 25, 2021
191: What if you suffered from trichotillomania?
00:37:09

“The person who was pulling was just stronger than the person who wanted a perfect life.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: Growing up with a close, religious family a young woman’s aspiration for perfect beauty turns her into the very image of herself she was afraid of. 


Today’s episode featured Caroline. To learn more about Trichotillomania, go to www.bfrb.org. There you can find additional information about Trichotillomania and other body-focused repetitive behaviors, as well as support groups and helpful resources.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Andrew Waits: www.andrdewwaits.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: body dysmorphia, trichotillomania, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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May 18, 2021
190: What if your fairytale was finally within reach?
00:47:15

“I was really lost and I was so incredibly desperate for someone to love me…and to fill the void that had kind of been opened in me .”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Matt Volla

 

Episode Summary: Following an early childhood trauma, a woman seeks to fill the void with a series of unhealthy relationships, until a fairytale romance promises to be everything she ever wanted

 

Today's guest prefers to remain anonymous, but if you'd like to reach out to her directly, you can email at HerSavePoint@gmail.com, or connect on Discord at HerSavePoint#5365.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Matt Volla: www.mattvolla.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: childhood trauma, childhood sexual assault, rape, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

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May 11, 2021
189: What if you couldn't stop shining?
00:48:45

“That feeling that you get when you find out an important piece of information, that ‘aha moment’ was happening constantly. I felt as if somebody put my brain into a microwave.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: Growing up in a home of abandonment and neglect, a teenager finds a grand, new reality in the rabbit hole of addiction until they can no longer find their way back.

 

Today’s guest prefers to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to them, you can email at artichoke.heart456@gmail.com

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Andrew Waits: www.andrdewwaits.com

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Upstart: upstart.com/happening; June’s Journey

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Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: psychosis, drug use, child neglect, childhood trauma, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Enter the Lair/Drone” – SkyeVoyager https://linktr.ee/SkyeVoyager

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

 

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May 04, 2021
188: What if you spent four years inside?
00:52:44

“I was just left fighting this invisible thing inside me, the root of which I didn’t know.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A woman grows up with an idyllic childhood in Scotland, when a phobia of mysterious origin begins consuming her thoughts and eventually her future

 

Today’s episode featured Rachel Balcarek. You can find out more about Rachel on Instagram @bearscenario.

  

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Ana Luisa: analuisa.com/happeningmd; ThredUp: thredup.com/happening

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Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: emetophobia, agoraphobia, panic attacks, depression, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Sk”Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Apr 27, 2021
187: What if you were trapped all over again?
00:50:28

“In horror movies there’s this beautiful moment for the protagonist where the monster’s real, everyone can see it…but a lot of times in real life, there isn’t a neatly wrapped up ending.”

  

Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock

 

Episode Summary: A young man growing up in an abusive home falls into a whirlwind romance that throws him into another cycle of chaos

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Jason Blalock: www.jasonblalock.com

 

Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at https://wondery.com/plus

Episode Sponsors: Ana Luisa: analuisa.com/happeningmd; BetterHelp: betterhelp.com/happening

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Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: https://www.thisisactuallyhappening.com/shop to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

 

Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, drug use, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Apr 20, 2021
186: What if you were consumed by a preposterous phobia?
00:46:23

“I cannot get over the fact that this actually happened. It felt strangely prophetic.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: Growing up with an unreliable mother, a woman develops severe OCD with multiple phobias, until she must confront the most improbable scenario

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Andrew Waits Website: andrdewwaits.com/

 

Episode Sponsors: Simplisafe: simplisafe.com/actually; Upstart: upstart.com/happening

Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening

 

Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: OCD, obsessive thoughts, health anxiety, cancer, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes/Embers” – SkyeVoyager https://linktr.ee/SkyeVoyager

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Apr 13, 2021
185: What if you kept shaking hands with death?
00:51:08

“I was forced into being vulnerable, I was forced into being present, I was forced into existing suddenly with my lights turned on.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli

 

Episode Summary: Grappling with her identity and disruptive health anxiety, a woman reaches in adulthood with a dream job and strong community, when suddenly her worst-case scenario becomes a reality.


Today's episode featured Natalia Provatas. Natalia is a Writer from Los Angeles. You can find out more about her on Instagram @chola4hire, and on her website, nataliaprovatas.com. Since we recorded this episode, Natalia's treatment has been going well, she is living independently again and working on her Memoir Ghosting My Death Doula, a series of funny essays about her battle with breast cancer.  

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Sara Marinelli Website: www.saramarinelli.com


Episode Sponsors: ThredUp: thredup.com; Green Chef: greenchef.com/90happening

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Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/

 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: graphic medical descriptions, near death experience, cancer, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

 

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Apr 06, 2021
184: What if you didn't know who he was?
00:52:44

“No matter how hard you fight against having no change in your life, it’s going to come anyway.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: Growing up in an environment of constant change, a woman vows to find a different path to stability, only to have a shocking revelation turn her world upside down

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Episode Sponsors: BetterHelp: betterhelp.com/happening

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Content/Trigger Warnings: suicidal ideation, domestic abuse, child neglect, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

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Mar 30, 2021
183: What if everyone was watching you?
00:52:38

“If you could imagine having thoughts that frightened you, then other times they made you believe things about your perception or what you were seeing weren’t real or distorted…you would do anything to stop it.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Matt Volla

 

Episode Summary: After making a successful career and surviving several tumultuous relationships, a woman descends into the darkest depths of severe mental illness

Today’s episode featured Melissa. You can find out more about her on her website, ifnotnowthenwhen.website/, which is still in progress, but which she hopes to create as a resource for others with similar struggles.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, suicide attempt, sexual assault, psychosis, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Mar 23, 2021
182: What if your daughter committed a seemingly unforgivable act?
00:50:41

“I close my eyes even to this day reliving it over and over in my head like, ‘Did that really happen?’ I wasn’t for sure that it was really real.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: A mother struggles to raise her child through a series of chaotic relationships, when one day, as her daughter’s mental illness spirals out of control, an unthinkable decision will change their lives forever

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com/


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, self-harm, sexual abuse, suicide attempt, car accident, near death experience, severe injury, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Mar 16, 2021
181: What if you committed a seemingly unforgivable act?
00:58:24

“I just kept saying ‘I don’t know, I’m sorry, I don’t know, it’s all my fault. I can’t believe I just did that,’… I’m in disbelief.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: After a traumatic childhood, a young woman spirals into mental illness and in her darkest moment makes an unthinkable decision that will change her family forever

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com/


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, alcoholism, self-harm, sexual abuse, rape, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, car accident, near death experience, severe injury, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Mar 09, 2021
180: What if your plane was hijacked?
00:40:18

“Time just did not exist, the only thing that existed was decisions.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock

 

Episode Summary: A young woman’s first trip to reconnect with her homeland in Ethiopia takes a terrifying turn as hijackers take over an otherwise routine flight

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Website for Jason Blalock: www.jasonblalock.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: hijacking, death, gun violence, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Mar 02, 2021
179: What if a horrifying loss led to a grand adventure?
00:53:02

“I saw myself in the mirror, and it was like seeing a CGI character…I’m sitting here looking at this frail person that looks nothing like me.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: A horrific accident leaves a man severely disabled, but after hitting rock bottom in his recovery a new life opens he could never have imagined

 

Today’s episode featured Dustin Reynolds. Since this interview, Dustin has made it down to Colombia, and is planning on heading to Panama, Galapagos, and Polynesia before returning to Hawaii. To find out more about Dustin, see pictures and follow his journey or donate to help him complete the voyage, go to thesinglehandedsailor.com. You can follow him on Instagram and Facebook @thesinglehandedsailor. You can also support him on Patreon and GoFundMe:

 

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/thesinglehandedsailor

GoFundMe: https://www.gofundme.com/f/hngchb-support-the-single-handed-sailor

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

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Content/Trigger Warnings: car crash, severe injury, amputation, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” - Chris Zabriskie

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Feb 23, 2021
178: What if you couldn't tell him what really happened?
00:59:46

“Will I ever be able to be one of them ever again, or am I just like an alien now?”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

 

Episode Summary: A woman finally escapes the trauma of her mother’s mental illness only to find a new, more horrifying monster in the very place she finds respite

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, domestic abuse, violence, child neglect, rape, sexual assault, suicide, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Feb 16, 2021
177: What if you woke up two months later?
00:41:21

“I felt like my brain was in Saran Wrap…you’re just not all there.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: Having adapted to the challenges of growing up with cerebral palsy, a woman is sideswiped into a new life after a crash she can’t remember changes everything.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: car crash, traumatic brain injury, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Feb 09, 2021
176: What if you were trapped in a never-ending dream?
00:47:02

“I was asleep. Everything I was going through was not real, and it’s just this very convincing feeling that you’re right about this”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman develops a severe eating disorder that lands her in intensive psychiatric care, where an extreme treatment program traps her in an alternate reality from which she cannot escape. 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, eating disorder, psychosis, child abuse, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

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Feb 02, 2021
175: What if you had their knee on your neck?
00:49:05

“They were there to remind me who I was in the world, and it hurt too much on the inside, being hurt on the outside didn’t matter as much.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

 

Episode Summary: A man’s rage grows after growing up with racism and abuse, leading to transformative encounters with brutality, violence and ultimately, inner strength.

 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: racism, racially charged language, violence, police brutality, explicit language

 

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Jan 26, 2021
174: What if you couldn't remember that night?
00:57:10

“The hardest part about the whole thing is just not knowing; for a few hours that night I wasn’t me and that’s terrifying.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman answers a Craigslist ad for a job and ends up on a harrowing night that doesn’t add up


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, racism, violence, murder, police brutality, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Jan 19, 2021
173: What if your cry for help led to an unthinkable tragedy?
00:45:54

“You just think this is a nightmare, and then you realize nope this is my life, this is real.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Episode Summary: A mother faces the ultimate tragedy at the hands of those who are supposed to protect and serve.  


Today’s episode featured Taun Hall. To find out more about Taun and Miles and the Miles Hall Foundation, go to justiceformileshall.org. There you can see the video mentioned in the episode, donate to the campaign, learn more about the case or get involved. You can also join the community on Instagram @justiceformileshall or on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/justiceformileshall


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Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, racism, violence, murder, police brutality, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Jan 12, 2021
Holiday 2020 Rebroadcast - #100: What if he wouldn’t let you leave?
00:53:29

“I just didn't feel like a person, I didn't feel like I was a being walking on this planet a lot of the time."


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman fights for her life after her husband turns into a monster.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 


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Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, attempted murder, assault, life-threatening circumstances, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Original score and sound design by Ryan Black – ryanblack.io

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Jan 05, 2021
Holiday 2020 Rebroadcast - #87: What if you were hunted by the Japanese Mafia?
00:41:03

“This might be the beginning of my last few minutes on the planet.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: An American working in Tokyo ends up in the crosshairs of a notorious organized crime family.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com



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Content/Trigger Warnings: life-threatening circumstances, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Original score and sound design by Ryan Black – ryanblack.io

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Dec 29, 2020
Holiday 2020 Rebroadcast - #78: What if you narrowly escaped with your life?
00:43:24

“It took me a long time to feel even like a person again."


Producers: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman is left stranded by her abusive boyfriend in the middle of the night in unfamiliar territory


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic abuse, life-threatening circumstances, mugging, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Lumien” – Jari Pitkanen

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Dec 22, 2020
172: What if you were lured into an unspeakable hell?
00:59:03

“I did have a hard time ever really feeling safe anywhere, and the problem was just that inside of me it wasn’t safe so it didn’t matter where I was.”


Producers: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After a brutal rape at age 11, a woman keeps her secret, only to be haunted decades later by events that compel her to confront her deepest fears


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 


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Content/Trigger Warnings: rape, sexual violence, psychosis, mental illness, suicidal ideation, homicidal thoughts, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

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Dec 15, 2020
171: What if you saw inside the belly of the beast?
00:37:52

“Looking down the barrel of a gun is devastating….Although I was a kid it was very clear that there was lots of hate, and I was kind of frozen.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Episode Summary: Growing up surrounded by racism and police brutality, a man tries to understand and heal his past by seeing what’s really inside the belly of the beast.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/


Today’s episode featured scholar and novelist Dr. Michael Datcher. Michael is author of the critically-acclaimed  New York Times Bestseller Raising Fences, the novel AMERICUS and the book of literary theory ANIMATING BLACK AND BROWN LIBERATION: A Theory of American Literatures. You can find out more about Michael and his work at www.michaeldatcher.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: violence, lynching, police brutality, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

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Dec 08, 2020
170: What if you didn't sleep for 120 hours?
00:56:30

“It felt like the earth had stopped rotating like I was trapped in this moment of just complete all-encompassing fear.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A young woman hungry to explore the world goes on a trip to Tanzania and unexpectedly finds herself caught in an endless cycle of impending doom.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Today’s episode featured Emily Caldwell. You can find out more about her on Instagram @emilycaldwell589


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Content/Trigger Warnings: anxiety, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, medical trauma, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic

 

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Dec 01, 2020
169: What if you were an Adult Baby Diaper Lover?
00:39:30

“I would do everything I could that had to happen to engage with this object that I needed to do and then I would bury it….And I had to realize at a certain point that it was just not going to work.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Episode Summary: At a young age, a man develops a fetish for diapers that ends up reshaping the course of his adult life. 


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com


Today’s episode featured Maz. His story and came to us by way of Dixie De La Tour of Bawdy Storytelling.


Maz is a regular volunteer, educator, and leader in the kink community in Omaha Nebraska. He and his kink family, House St. James, have run the Sex-positive adult education organization, Omaha Dinner and Demos, for the last 3 years. If you would like more information about Maz, House St.James, or Omaha Dinner and Demos, you can find them all on FetLife at House_St_James.


House St.James: https://fetlife.com/users/8118928

Maz: https://fetlife.com/users/263789

Dinner and Demos group page: https://fetlife.com/groups/119528

 

Special thanks to Sexual Folklorist Dixie De La Tour, Creator and Host of the incredible sex and storytelling series, Bawdy Storytelling. Dixie and Bawdy Storytelling have been running live storytelling events for almost 14 years (and a podcast for 4 of those years), and recently received a ‘Best Erotic Podcast’ Award from Oprah Magazine. You can find out more about Bawdy Storytelling’s podcasts and livestream shows at bawdystorytelling.com.


Listen to the Bawdy Storytelling podcast at  http://bit.ly/bawdypodcast

On Twitter: @Bawdy

On Instagram: @bawdystorytelling

On Facebook:  www.Facebook.com/BawdyStorytelling

On Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Bawdy

On YouTube : http://bit.ly/BawdyTV


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Content/Trigger Warnings: fetish, age play, sexually explicit scenes, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

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Nov 24, 2020
168: What if you believed you were Jesus Christ?
00:56:00

“It’s like you’ve lost yourself completely, and you’re basically left in a million different pieces.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman self-medicating for anxiety and depression spirals into an alternate reality after an other-worldly encounter



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Content/Trigger Warnings: psychosis, drug use, demonic themes, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

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Nov 17, 2020
167: What if you had a fetish for disgust?
00:37:40

“Once I was able to be in control of what I decide is disgusting instead of having that placed on me, that’s what helped me become friends with the feeling.”


Producer: Whit Missildine , Andrew Waits


Episode Summary: After growing up in a rigid Christian community, a woman finds beauty in revolting behaviors.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Today’s Guest: Gwen

Instagram @bidaily_

Email: bookingoffthecuffs@gmail.com

Gwen was originally interviewed on the podcast Off the Cuffs, hosted by Dick Wound and minimus maximus. She is also the booking manager for Off the Cuffs.


Off the Cuffs Podcast

Twitter @DickWound

Instragram @DWPodHost or @OCPKink

Website: offthecuffs.org


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Content/Trigger Warnings: sex, BDSM, vomit play, excrement play, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

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Nov 10, 2020
166: What if you didn't have any fear?
00:57:16

“The mind almost has to find a way to prove that it’s not real. This cannot be happening.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After visiting a psychiatrist for mild anxiety, a young man embarks on a wild spree that will alter the course of his life forever.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

If you would like to be in direct contact with today’s storyteller for questions or comments, you can email him at aliveandwell11@gmail.com.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mania, violent crime, robbery, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

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Nov 03, 2020
165: What if you were a blind dominatrix?
00:38:26

“In these spaces I, as a vulnerable person, am suddenly given the gift of somebody else’s vulnerability.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Growing up blind and isolated from her peers in a strict upbringing, a woman finds empowerment in a kinky world where the power balance is reversed.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Today’s Guest: Mistress Blind. Twitter and Instagram @mistressblind. Email: mistressblind@protonmail.com

Mistress Blind was originally interviewed on the podcast Off the Cuffs, hosted by Dick Wound and minimus maximus.

Off the Cuffs Podcast: Twitter @DickWound. Instragram @DWPodHost or @OCPKink. Website: offthecuffs.org


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Content/Trigger Warnings: violent fantasies, sexual fetish, masochism, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Oct 27, 2020
164: What if a shocking accusation devastated your family?
00:54:07

“It’s truly such an indescribable feeling…kind of like the walls are closing in on you, like reality is just collapsing.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After a teenage girl begins dating her mom’s student, a shocking accusation leaves a small-town family in ruins.


Today’s episode featured Catherine Cole. You can find out more about her on Instagram @catcole20


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Content/Trigger Warnings: charges of statutory rape and sexual molestation, domestic abuse, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Oct 20, 2020
Introducing This is Actually Happening
00:01:33

The uncanny, extraordinary, true stories of events that have dramatically altered the lives of ordinary people; a son is shot by his own father, a woman's sister develops multiple personalities, a man wakes up in the morgue. These are riveting, moving and often haunting stories that will stick with you long after you listen.

All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are available ad free with Wondery+. Join Wondery+ to access the full This is Actually Happening catalog, along with exclusives, binges, early access, and ad free listening. Available in the Wondery App. https://wondery.app.link/happening

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Oct 17, 2020
163: What if you grew up in a violent gang?
00:52:22

“Any sense of identity no matter how fake was better than no sense of identity, yet if I don’t have a sense of identity, then who am I as a person?”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After tragedy strikes a Vietnamese refugee family, a young man finds his new home in a violent gang, forever marking his life path through acts of destruction and redemption.


Today’s episode featured Quan Huynh. You can read more about Quan’s story in his memoir, Sparrow in the Razorwire - www.sparrowintherazorwire.com. You can also find out more about Quan and

his current work at www.quanxhuynh.com and on Twitter, Facebook and Instagram @quanxhuynh


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: murder, gang violence, death, incarceration, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Oct 06, 2020
162: What if you grew up in a cult?
01:01:07

“I didn’t know what normal was, so everything looked so scary….Everything I was doing I was learning for the time it was like my birth into the world.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman puts the pieces of her life back together after a childhood spent inside an insidious religious cult in Los Angeles.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: child abuse, sexual abuse, suicide, death, drug use, mental illness, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

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Sep 22, 2020
161: What if you suffered a shocking loss?
00:47:49

“That feeling…honestly I will never forget it, just your heart dropping into your stomach…it’s unreal.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After growing up in an abusive household, a man confronts a startling, ambiguous loss


Today's episode featured Evan Pestona. If you have any information or resources you feel could help bring justice for Evan and his mother, you can email him at justiceforsteph@gmail.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, death, murder, suicide, discriminatory slurs, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Sep 08, 2020
Happenings Vol. 1: No Man's Land
01:14:05

Today we launch a new series of bonus content called “Happenings” with three stories of people facing their deepest fears in the unforgiving wilderness of the natural world.


Part 1: What if the desert dried your sorrow?

Part 2: What if the ocean tested your faith?

Part 3: What if a boulder crushed your dreams?


Producers: Andrew Waits, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Stranded in a Mexican desert, the ocean waves of Guam, and the sandstone boulders of Utah, three people face their deepest fears in the unforgiving wilderness of the natural world.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Show Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Andrew Waits Website: andrewwaits.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: near-death experiences, explicit language


Today’s episode features: Tiki Mashy, Greg Barnes, and Shaina Maytum

Tiki Mashy is an owner and operator at Cowboy Up Hanggliding in Wharton, Texas. You can find out more about it at cuhanggliding.com

Greg Barnes currently lives in Guam and works at Castle Zion Church (괌 시온성교회) as the youth / English ministry pastor. He is currently turning his story into a book. Greg welcomes anyone contacting him at gregbarnesguam@gmail.com. That’s barns, spelled Barnes.

Shaina Maytum is a writer living in Colorado. You can read her work at shainamaytum.com


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Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho and Ryan Black

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

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Sep 01, 2020
160: What if you were assaulted by a stranger in the dark?
00:45:12

“Right in the center of your body there’s this lead heavy ball, and inside of it is an immediate understanding of evil.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman walking to work in the early morning hours faces the ultimate terror.


Today’s episode features Kira Knight. You can reach Kira at violentcrimesurvivors@gmail.com


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault, sexual violence, rape, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Aug 25, 2020
159: What if someone you love committed a monstrous crime?
00:00:19

“I could live with the nightmares. I could live with the panic attacks. But the thing that was tearing me apart was questioning if everything I know in my life was real at all.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A lifelong friendship filled with care, love and personal growth takes a shocking turn in the aftermath of a brutal act of violence.


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: childhood trauma, parental abuse, graphic violence, murder, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Aug 11, 2020
158: What if you entered The Void?
01:07:46

“You try to take off your skin to try to get rid of this voice, and it goes all the way down to the bone.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A man suffering the deep generational traumas of poverty, racism, abuse and mental illness finds transformative power in an ancient plant medicine.


Today’s episode featured Dexter L. Booth. Dexter is the author of the poetry collection, Scratching

the Ghost from Graywolf Press, which won the 2012 Cave Canem Poetry Prize, as well as the chapbook Rhapsody from Etchings Press. Booth’s poems have been included in the anthologies The Best American Poetry 2015, The Burden of Light: Poems on Illness and Loss, The Golden Shovel Anthology honoring Gwendolyn Brooks, and Furious Flower: Seeding the Future of African American Poetry. He is a professor in the Ashland University MFA program and a residential faculty member at Paradise Valley Community College where he teaches poetry and English composition. You can find out more about Dexter, his writing and teaching by following him on Instagram@dexter_two_omelettes, or on Facebook or Twitter. You can find his books Scratching the Ghost and Rhapsody on Bookshop.org, Amazon, or wherever books are sold.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic abuse, mental illness, suicide, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

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Jul 28, 2020
Rebroadcast - #43: What if you witnessed a thousand deaths?
00:31:23

"All of the ways we define ourselves are going to be stripped away by illness or the dying process...now who am I?"


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After 30 years running a Zen Hospice center, a man reflects on what it's like to help transition people through the dying process.


Today’s episode features Frank Ostaseski

Author of: "The Five Invitations: What death can teach us about living fully”

Website: https://fiveinvitations.com/about-frank-ostaseski/



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Content/Trigger Warnings: death, terminal illness, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Tibetan Ohm Chant

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

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Jul 14, 2020
Rebroadcast - #93: What if you witnessed the limits of human suffering?
00:42:25

**This rebroadcast episode originally aired in April, 2017**

“It’s in these places that you begin to see the limits of human capacity – how resilient we are...how we will find a way.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A Yale student moves to Congo to pursue his journalistic dreams and finds an ignored world of people suffering under war and dictatorship whose stories never make the news

A wide-eyed Yale graduate shares stories of Congo, where he dedicated himself to exposing what the modern world closed its eyes to.

Today’s episode features Anjan Sundaram, Author of: "Stringer: A Reporter's Journey in the Congo" and "Bad News: Last Journalists in a Dictatorship"

Website: anjansundaram.com, Twitter: @anjansun


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Content/Trigger Warnings: war, violence, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

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Jun 30, 2020
157: What if you couldn't tell anyone?
00:51:05

“The idea that they had plucked me from this terrible life…and it was all going to be sunflowers and rainbows and shit…I just view that as a fantasy.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A young black girl born to a drug-addicted mother is adopted by white, middle-class parents, only to face more sinister taboos as she becomes a stranger within her own family.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: parental abuse, sexual abuse, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

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Jun 16, 2020
156: What if you swallowed 48 bags of cocaine?
00:45:25

“I had to go through having taken everything away from me to come to the conclusion that … you’ll come back a person that’s wiser and a more full, satisfied human.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A young man looking for a quick way to get rid of student loan debt gambles with his life and nearly pays the ultimate price


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Content/Trigger Warnings: drugs, near death, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:   Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Jun 02, 2020
155: What if you had to pull the plug?
00:48:17

“When somebody hurts you and then they’re like, ‘now you have to take care of him, you’re responsible for him…’ I didn’t know how to feel.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A young woman is forced to make a decision about the fate of a father she never knew.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: death, mental illness, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:  “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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May 19, 2020
154: What if your mom was murdered by a serial killer?
00:46:07

“I had total grief and sadness and fear and also just disbelief that it happened. But it’s different when you lose somebody who hurt you.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After surviving a family broken by drug addiction and mental illness, a woman finds out her mother’s death was tied to one of the most notorious crimes in American history.


Today’s episode featured Nova Reeves. To find out more about Nova, you can Google her article on the death penalty in the Tacoma Tribune. You can hear her reading poetry on YouTube by searching for Quiet Lightning. You can also get a copy of her zine by emailing her directly at novareeves@gmail.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, murder, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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May 05, 2020
BONUS Episode - Tyson Was Abducted - from What Was That Like podcast
01:13:47

Today, I'm introducing the podcast What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson. Featuring real people in unreal situations, What Was That Like covers similar, jaw-dropping stories to This Is Actually Happening, but with its own uniquely fascinating format and style.

Today's show will feature a full episode from What Was That Like titled, "Tyson was abducted," about a man who, walking through a parking lot one night, was jumped by two strangers and thrown into a car with no idea where he was being taken. 

You can find the rest of What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson, on all podcast platforms, or check out the website, at whatwasthatlike.com

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Apr 28, 2020
153: What if you wanted to disappear?
00:48:32

“I had this secret inside me that I felt was my one and only friend and companion that took me away from all the pain and anxiety that I had moving through my life.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A young girl’s world is turned upside-down by the early death of her father, but starving herself to cope with the pain becomes a sinister companion


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Content/Trigger Warnings: eating disorder, death, domestic abuse, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Apr 21, 2020
152: What if you were a human shield?
00:53:23

“This fake face I was putting on for everybody was my only sense of normality when my whole life is already changed. I didn’t want to admit that stuff was wrong, and I did it in such a convincing way that the majority of people believed me.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A man becomes a hero during a horrific act of war only to face the worst of it after he survives.


Today's episode featured Will Hoover. To find out more about Will, he’s on Twitter and Instagram @WillHooverTV, or you can check his own recently launched podcast about film and technology called Uncovered Cinema.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: war, severe injury, gun violence, PTSD, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

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Apr 07, 2020
151: What if he made you think you were crazy?
00:48:06

“I was sure that this was his mental illness and not something wrong with me until I started hearing it in my head. And that was when I started to think, 'maybe I’m actually going crazy'.”


Producers: Sara Marinelli, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman finds respite from childhood anxieties in relationships only to enter a spiral of mental illness and unexplained phenomena. 


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Content/Trigger Warnings: emotional abuse, sexual abuse, domestic violence, drug use, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Mar 24, 2020
150: What if you were trapped in a cycle of abuse?
00:52:10

“My earliest memories as a child were fear and anxiety…I was never able to control the situation and that unknown just haunted me.”


Producer/Editor: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A girl straddles many worlds growing up biracial with a single white mother whose new boyfriend brings chaos into a peaceful home.


Today’s episode featured Arielle Hermanson. You can find her on Twitter and Instagram @arijblige


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Content/Trigger Warnings: abuse, domestic violence, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

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Mar 10, 2020
149: What if you committed child sexual abuse?
01:05:35

 “I misused my position of power to get my needs met…How is it that if we’re called by God to this ministry we could possibly do such a destructive thing?”


Producers/Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Stephanie Lepp, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A priest struggles to transform his life after facing the consequences of his most shameful secret. 


Today's episode featured Gil Gustafson. This episode was originally produced by Stephanie Lepp at Reckonings, and adapted for This Is Actually Happening. You can find Reckonings wherever you listen, and at: www.reckonings.show


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: child sexual abuse, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

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Feb 25, 2020
148: What if you killed someone?
00:59:42

“We have so much less control than we think we do….Death is really close at hand and we do not do ourselves often any favors by forgetting that.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Firmly established in adulthood with a great career behind her and a wonderful life, a woman suddenly finds herself to be an unlikely perpetrator of the most horrible transgression. 


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

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Content/Trigger Warnings: death, car crash, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Feb 11, 2020
147: What if your best friend was dying?
00:48:13

“It’s much better to try to move forward with your life and accept that things are nebulous, and there are no clear answers.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Sara Marinelli, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After finally being accepted to an elite college sorority, a woman makes a new best friend whose terminal illness leaves her consumed by uncertainty. 


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Jan 28, 2020
146: What if you thought your mother was a robot?
00:46:31

“I completely lost touch with reality. You can’t rely on those around you, and you can’t rely on what’s within you. That’s the most terrifying thing in the world.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Struggling to find his identity after college, a man suddenly suffers from panic attack that leads to a terrifying downward spiral. 


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: drug use, mental breakdown, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

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Jan 14, 2020
Best of TIAH #1 – Rebroadcast - #120 What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder?
01:05:55

“I don’t really remember not having different parts…I just thought that everybody had different quote unquote people inside them.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman suffers immeasurable trauma at the hands of her abusive parents as traffickers, resulting in a number of “alters” that inhabit her.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: parental abuse, torture, sexual abuse, sex trafficking, murder, severe mental illness


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Water” – Johannes Welsch

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Jan 07, 2020
Best of TIAH #2 – Rebroadcast – #94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had?
00:41:51

"It’s surreal. It’s like a movie. It’s like it’s not even happening to you it’s happening to someone else."

Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A single mother raising a uniquely gifted child experiences the worst thing that could ever happen to a parent.

A mother endures the most unimaginable loss


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Dec 31, 2019
Best of TIAH #3 – Rebroadcast – #112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door?
00:57:03

"What happened to me is one of those things where people say, like, 'that could never happen to you.' So now once that happened, it's like well anything can happen to me at any time."

 

Producer: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Megan’s close relationship with her mother turns into a shocking, unthinkable nightmare when an unlikely intruder enters their home. 


A violent and unexpected home invasion claims the life of a young woman's mother


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “"Union Flow" - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Dec 24, 2019
145: What if your best friend met a tragic fate?
00:41:05

“I’m the kind of person where I like to know answers. I don’t like secrets I don’t like surprises…I really want to know what brought him to that. I really want to know why.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After his best friend contracts a rare disease, a man’s friendship deepens as they grow into adulthood together, only to end with a sudden, shocking turn of events.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Dec 17, 2019
144: What if you suffered from postpartum depression?
00:51:44

“All those thoughts were going through my head like you’re worthless, you’re a loser, you’re a failure, you can’t be happy, you can’t feel love…just this feeling of profound failure.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Sara Marinelli, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman sinks into a psychological black hole following what was supposed to be the greatest moment of her life.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Dec 03, 2019
143: What if you were seduced into a whole new world?
01:08:32

“Am I at fault? Am I not a victim? Should I not be able to say that because I let it happen? I don’t know if in the human heart there will ever be black and white answers to something like that.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Leaving her sheltered but complicated evangelical Christian past, a woman explores a kinky relationship that leads her to some of the darkest corners of the world.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual violence, abuse, sexual trauma, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Nov 19, 2019
142: What if it happened in broad daylight?
00:48:18

“I didn’t really realize that it was a thing that was happening to me. I don’t really know how to describe that feeling, but it was just so hard to understand.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman finally establishes herself in a job she loves when a customer commits an act that will change her life forever.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: violent assault, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Nov 05, 2019
141: What if you witnessed a horrific act?
00:31:50

“I just felt something inside of me that was so sickening. It’s just like this point of realization, almost like your biggest fear in that moment had come true.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Growing up in a small Midwest town, a teenage girl forms a close friendship with a boy from a nearby town, when things unexpectedly take a very dark turn.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: suicide, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Oct 22, 2019
140: What if you were entangled in a web of shame?
00:42:55

“It’s just confusing thinking about even today what I’m supposed to feel about the whole thing…humans aren’t really built to fully understand that kind of relationship.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Struggling with depression and gender dysphoria, a person finds solace in an online community, but relationships become shockingly complicated by the disruptive actions of one notorious member.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: bullying, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Wake Up” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Oct 08, 2019
139: What if your father disappeared?
00:49:46

“The worst thing that anxiety does is make you think that you have control to change something, like if I can constantly be in control of everything then nothing bad will happen.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A family who for years struggled to cope with the aftermath of a traumatic injury now faces a far more terrifying unknown: the disappearance of their father.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: missing person, traumatic injury of a child, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Sep 24, 2019
138: What if at three months pregnant your world was turned upside down?
00:42:00

“It’s like this weird tunnel of reality collapsing and you want to hold on to where you just were at where none of this happened, but now you have this thing that you have to absorb somehow.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: A woman is three months pregnant when her husband’s pursuit of a fugitive turns their world upside down.


Today's episode features Shideh Etaat. If you'd like to donate to the GoFundMe page for her husband's recovery, follow the link below. http://bit.ly/shidehgofundme


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Content/Trigger Warnings: traumatic injury, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Sep 10, 2019
137: What if you were the one to break the silence?
00:44:10

“I don’t know what I was thinking but I just kept feeling like the waves of shame because of the shame I made them feel.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Growing up in a household full of both love and violence in Mississippi, Kiese Laymon struggles with generational trauma, career success, and addiction before finally facing the silences of his past.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: physical violence, assault, emotional abuse, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Aug 27, 2019
136: What if you had to fight for your life?
00:40:06

“I did have the feeling that someone was gonna come back and do something horrible again after that.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: Terra Newell is thrown a nightmare scenario as her mother’s new love life spins out of control, while the ordeal takes on a new life as the centerpiece of the famous Dirty John podcast and TV series.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: physical violence, assault, emotional abuse, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Aug 20, 2019
135: What if a minor procedure left you permanently altered?
00:43:48

“My personhood had been shattered into a thousand pieces that I and my family were left to pick up one at a time.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After self-medicating for years to cope with the emotional aftermath of an abusive, religious upbringing, a woman goes in for a minor surgery, and when she emerges, everything has changed.


Today's episode features Olivia Wilder. You can find out more about Olivia in Instagram @oliviaamputeefitness


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Content/Trigger Warnings: medical trauma, explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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Aug 13, 2019
Season 9 Announcements
00:02:40

Announcements for Season 9 of This Is Actually Happening. Includes updates on the release schedule, the new This is Actually Happening store, and more. If you'd like to submit a design for a This Is Actually Happening t-shirt or poster, send your artwork to actuallyhappeningpodcast@gmail.com


All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are available ad free with Wondery+. Join Wondery+ to access the full This is Actually Happening catalog, along with exclusives, binges, early access, and ad free listening. Available in the Wondery App. https://wondery.app.link/happening

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Aug 06, 2019
134: What if your singular dream fell to pieces?
00:39:45

“How could I allow myself to mourn what I had lost? Because if I mourned it, then it was like a death, and I couldn’t accept that the me that I knew had died.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine


Episode Summary: After devoting his life to a singular passion, a man develops a rare condition that threatens to crush his dreams forever.


Today’s episode featured Stefan Weiner. As a musician, he goes by Stefan Alexander and you can hear more about his music on his website at www.stefanalxndr.com, on Instagram @stefanalxndr, or look for Stefan Alexander on any music platform.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” “Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

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Jun 11, 2019
133: What if your life went up in flames?
00:39:37

“All that traumatized people are really looking for is not a fix-it but more like a validation or acknowledgement that it matters.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho


Episode Summary: A woman finally establishes a life for herself after years of caring for her mother’s illness, only to watch her entire life be consumed before her eyes.


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Wake Up” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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May 28, 2019
132: What if you were kept from the one you loved most?
00:29:38

“It’s interesting always having this void, knowing that you have something so wonderful that could love you so much and you could love so much that exists out there.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho


Episode Summary: A young man falls deeply in love after meeting the girl of his dreams, leading to an unexpected event that leaves him with an irreparable void. 


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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May 14, 2019
131: What if a psychotic break split your life wide open?
00:31:57

“I have a fear every single day am I going crazy and I don’t even know it? I didn’t know the things that I was doing and the things that I was saying were so extreme.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho


Episode Summary: After surviving a father whose mental illness consumed the family, a woman spirals down into psychosis and compulsive behaviors, finally leading her on the path to healing.


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Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


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Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.actuallyhappeningstore.com to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

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Apr 30, 2019
130: What if you had thoughts of harming those you love most?
00:37:01

“People say you should always trust your gut feelings. But I couldn’t trust my gut feeling and I still can’t to this day, because to me a gut feeling is in turn thinking about hurting somebody else.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho


Episode Summary: After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationships.  


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: www.actuallyhappeningstore.com to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Apr 16, 2019